| Tuesday, October 25, 2005 |
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hmMmm. i think i'm suffering from depression. according to the tv advertisement, i'm suffering from : a) persistant sadness or feeling down or gloomy (y'all should know that.. if u read my previous posts..) b) loss of interest in activities previously enjoyed, such as socializing with friends and family, most of the day, nearly everyday c) loss of appetite and loss of weight (yarh my school skirt's kinda looser than before..) d) insomnia. (yarh. i can't sleep at night!! hmmm.. maybe i just need someone to hug to sleep and pat.. gee.. i'm such a baby.. heh.) e) feeling restless and agitated more easily (um... to my bro. duhh!) f) feeling tired and having little energy (even though i wake up much later than you crazy people.) g) unable to concentrate and think clearly, thereby becoming indecisive (sure.. who doesn't?) h) feelings of worthlessness and guilt (yarh.. => guilt. cos i'm not really studying) i) recurrent thoughts of death (sure.. with all the shows.. and people dying cos of the natural disasters etc, it's inevitable that i will think of death.. unless of course i'm a hermit but i would like to take this opportunity to reassure you guys (and gals) that i am definitely NOT a hermit.) all the guidelines are according to the institute of mental health's most common symptoms of depression.. which happens to be present in the commercial on channel 5. ;) ) yuPp. so i guess that settles it. i'm suffering from depression. oh and remind me to buy some calming pills or whatever they're called ( i can't remember at the moment) for cindy as her super super belated birthday present this year. yeah. (her birthday's in june by the way.. hahahaha!) she needs it. oh and i need some extra for myself too. thanks to you girl, i'm going bonkers too. but that's what cousins are for.. right? not. =P i'm okay now i guess.. or as okay as i can get.. hmmm.. realize i always try to escape from the problem (or reality in this case) if i can't solve it.. or maybe i do solve it and then i escape for a while.. going back to it later.. oh well.. that's me i guess... someday.. i gotta change that habit.. trying to forget you too.. and trying not to contact ya.. i really am... i don't need anyone. i don't need you. (y'noe in what sense) *trying to brainwash myself* sighs. it's really hard. especially when all i want is to be with you. but you will never accept me.. at least i don't think you would. =(
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Past the point of no return - no backward glances: the games we've played till now are at an end. Past all thought of "if" or "when" - no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend . . . |
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| I am an eighteen-year-old student currently attending Republic Polytechnic. I enjoy reading, writing, chilling, intelligence, and sarcasm. My goals in life include being a professional slacker, wasting as much of my time, life and intelligence away, sleeping a minimum of 12 hours everyday, being a successful bum, and maybe, possibly, someone you could bring home to meet mom with. |
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