| Saturday, November 19, 2005 |
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well. it's finally over. it's ALL over. FINISHED. FINITO. y'noe.. i should be feeling happy. exhilarated. joyous. bonkers. bananas. crazy. pleased. glad. in high spirits. but for some weird reasons i only feel tired. sleepy. indifferent. numb. it's like after all the hype about Os and "pia-ing" and burning the midnight oil this year (which i admit only applies to me for about a month if you add up all the days i actually stayed up to study), it's suddenly OVER. yeah. all the rush has been drained out of us since a long time ago. from us jaded, battle worn soldiers. the urge, the NEED to study. to do well. to excel. i haven't felt that in ages. maybe i felt a little of that this year.. but after prelims? what anyone (and almost everyone. there. i said it. oh and i said ALMOST.) wanted to do was slack. brain dead le. mug too much for prelims end up too tired and bored to revise the same old stuff for Os. ha. over. hmmmmm.. sounds so final doesn't it? it is.. kinda.. finish 1o years of study and exams and study and exams and the cycle repeats. and now. i can either break out of the cycle (go poly. less exams. but still have exams of course. what else do you expect? we ARE living in sunny singapore [even though it's rainy at the moment] if you haven't noticed.) or continue living in that endless chase of paperwork.. (go jc. more exams. more stress. more everything except variety and hands-on. although that's supposed to change.) so now we have a holiday of sorts.. until we start our 3 months "trial" jc life next year.. oh and we have to decide which jc we wana go by next week.. 12 choices.. TWELVE bloody choices. crap lah. can't they make our lives easier and just make it SIX or something?! -.-" seems like my list of jcs is growing longer.. mj, saj, cj, acj. saj is still my first choice. yupp. hmmmm.. i just realized.. with the exception of mj, that the rest are.. mission schools. not that i wana convert to a christian or anything.. but i guess it's cos they're mainly english schools. not that i didn't enjoy being in chinese schools.. but yeah.. interesting, though. why do i feel indifferent when i've finally finished all my papers? it's like they don't hold much meaning for me anymore. just something i have to go through. i feel like clockwork.. just going through all the motions without thinking. so if exams have become something like that for us students, then shouldn't the government do something about it? exams are supposed to be something in which we actually look forward to. as a test of what we learnt. not something that occurs every week that we're all so bloody sick of the words exams/tests/papers. yeahh. sighs. i'm coughing like shit again. nice. was feeling sick during the last 3 days of Os. hopefully i don't screw up the papers.. =X going see doctor tomorrow (yeah i know. finally.).. not that i actually had a choice. but cos tomorrow my mum made an appointment with the doctor to take our flu jabs.. (sob sob. i DON'T like injections. i think NEEDLES are pretty cool but not INJECTIONS. somehow i've never relinquished the thought of the doctor pumping something into your bloodstream. ever watched vertical limit? the guy killed the dying guy by injecting him with air.) so.. it looks like i don't exactly have a choice.. after that we're going.. shopping.. for my grad night dress i think.. hopefully. spent 45 minutes walking around tampines mall and century square today trying to decide what to eat. all the nice, good food was at least 1o+. which me and xi wen agreed that spending 1o++ on food today isn't a good idea since we're planning to go out on monday.. so we finally winded up at pastamania. and the best part? we finished eating in what? 1o minutes max. kinda my fault.. i was so hungry (cos i didn't have lunch. as usual.) that i just ate very fast. and i usually eat very fast. even when i'm not hungry. so.. yeah. after that we walked for a short while here and there before we went back. (xi wen wanted to get home in time to watch the 9 o'clock show lah.) yupp. so there i was waiting for my train at tampines mrt when a train towards boon lay arrived. no biggie. not my train. i just continued walking. kinda absorbed in my own stuff. saw two guys walking towards me but i didn't really take much notice of that. and suddenly someone tapped me and i was like what the heck!! scared me sia. and i looked up and saw wei siong and jia jun. in home clothes. which explains the not recognizing them part. man. i chased wei siong.. heh.. who ask him to whack me like that?!!! and of course jj had to keep teasing me about it lah. -.-" hao you zhi. -.-" so anyway. there was i waiting for my train while the two of them kept me company (while waiting for the rest of the guys). turns out they were going to watch harry potter at shaw towers. and bear bear asked me join them.. not that i didn't want to.. it just felt very weird.. one whole bunch of guys and i'm the ONLY girl. AND the only one in school uniform. and the show was at 9pm to midnight. i'd probably go there and sleep or something.. not to mention that the minute i reach home i'll crash. and i'll miss my show! haha. crap.. hmmm.. bear bear looked quite nice. haha. jj looked.. normal. zhi han looked cute (as usual. haha.. i don't care. i still think he looks like a huge teddy bear.. so cute! =D). eugene looked damn tall. wait. he is. i just didn't realize how tall he is now.. yuan xin.. looked.. erm.. um... duno how to say.. he was wearing a grey and black striped long sleeve shirt with three-quarter pants.. the effect is.. um.. =X yeah. you get the picture. ahh! and they ps (pang seh) me! left me to wait for my train along while they got on theirs. without even saying buh bye. so bad! (sob sob.) haha. no lah. actually is kinda funny. cos of miscommunication. lol. their train arrived. so jj they all desperately signalled to yuan xin that train's here. then yuan xin and eugene run up the escalator. then yuan xin chiong for the train, followed closely by eugene. then bear bear see them run he also run. so the 3 of them rendezvous in the train. ;) left jj and zhi han beside me. those two laggers finally realized they're supposed to board the train too so chiong in. and barely made it. hahahaha. kinda funny actually. okay i've spent close to two hours blogging. cos i've been kinda busy chatting too.. heh. so blog a bit, chat a bit.. and so on and so forth.. like i said, i'm in the mood where i start to wonder about stuff.. the half asleep half awake mood when you start thinking and wondering and questioning everything and anything. (and according to some people thinking of so many stupid stuff.. i beg to differ though. stuff is never stupid. how you think people hone their logical, analytical and debating skills? through thinking and talking out all these "stupid" stuff. and if the stuff concerning you is stupid, aren't you stupid too? *raise eyebrows* sometimes people just say things which don't make much sense at all when you really go and think about it. wonder why then, do they say such things? hmmmm.) yeah. no more talking. i really should get to sleep. tired.. *yawns* tata~
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Past the point of no return - no backward glances: the games we've played till now are at an end. Past all thought of "if" or "when" - no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend . . . |
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| I am an eighteen-year-old student currently attending Republic Polytechnic. I enjoy reading, writing, chilling, intelligence, and sarcasm. My goals in life include being a professional slacker, wasting as much of my time, life and intelligence away, sleeping a minimum of 12 hours everyday, being a successful bum, and maybe, possibly, someone you could bring home to meet mom with. |
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