| Monday, December 05, 2005 |
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damn!! i just posted a damn long entry lah.. then it got ERASED!! crap crap crap crap CRAP! sighs! anyways. was just saying that.. what arhs.. hmmm.. oh yarh. that it's freaking cold here. below 5 deg c outside.. if i'm not wrong that is.. cold cold cold cold COLD!! *brrr* i'm at home with the heater on and i'm wearing a thick jacket over my long sleeve shirt and long johns under my track pants. and it's not enough. -.-" had to wear my dad's thick, black, WARM jacket over it all. the black one's thicker than mine! yeah. mine's the one in the pic below.. the beigey and black one.. that's my dear, beloved jacket! =D  okay okay. i know i look kinda.. guy. (according to annsley that is..) do i? hmmm. my hair was tucked inside my jacket's collar lah.. was trying the "vampire" effect y'noe. heh. LOL. fun what.. try new hairstyle.. lalallalaaaaa.. =P yeah. sighs.. needa go cut my fringe! it's getting too long.... must go snip snip snip some more! heh. and my bag just kept sliding off my shoulder.. sighs! exasperating. hmmm. today (monday) proved to be quite.. interesting. firstly i was online till 3+am before i went to sleep.. and 2 jokers messaged me on wholivesnearyou. fine. so since i was damn bored, i chatted with them. then i went to sleep. and do my scrap book. it's done! yay.. hahaha.. anyway, just now, when i cam back online again, i talked to yuan xin (nothing new. i'm always talking to him) and ken suddenly said hi. of his own accord. things are starting to get reaaaallly strange. considering that i haven't really had an actual conversation with him since we broke up. which is years ago. (mich. you see lah! all your fault.. that time shouldn't have said hi to him online.. =X oh well. it's my fault too for listening to ya. hahahaha. =P) whatever. i'm crapping. weird. recently (as in within these 2 days) 5 people messaged me.. strangers who i don't know.. and me being me yeah i replied hi and stuff. *shrugs* and i tried being ap!! i did.. i really did.. but somehow it seemed to bounce off them.. *rolls eyes* whatever. love doctor.. hah. jaz came up with that.. a nick for people who always help others with their "love" problems. seriously. do we know what "love" is actually all about? when we get into a relationship, the words just seem to flow... "i love you" and etc.. sighs.. maybe we do mean them.. maybe we don't. at our age.. do we really mean it when we say we love whoever it is we said we do? or is it just some.. sort of.. flowery embellishment.. to make it nicer.. of course who'd rather hear the words "i like you" over "i love you"?? no one. sighs.. my dear sotong's heart is breaking cos she thinks he don't love her no more.. what can i do? how can i help? i'm too far away to sms.. and she just went offline.. sighs. i feel so useless.. unable to help.. can only watch from afar.. i remember what daniel once said.. it's not my problem.. why should i get so torn up over being unable to help others? i duno.. i really don't. but i'll still try my best. it may seem, that the easiest thing to do is not to get into a relationship, right? but that's also the hardest thing to do.. like it or not, people like to fall in love.. or rather.. they love the idea of falling in love. of finding the perfect soul mate. the ONE. the match made in heaven. the one whom you're fated to be with. some idealistic, romantic part of me says that i should keep searching til i've found him. right. and the realistic part says it's never gonna happen. guess you should just ask me that question again when i've reached 7o. hah. oh.. and i seem to have a dancer in the making in my family (which includes my aunts and uncles and cousins)!! hahahaa.. accordingly, jas went to the barney show on wednesday and guess what? she went ON STAGE!! and jas being jas, she danced! yeah! in front of everyone!! hahaha.. even though the others on stage weren't so.. into it as she.. lol.. she took centrestage sia.. heh. and after dancing she bowed to the audience.. damn cute lah she.. hahahaha.. she even told her friend (who happened to be on stage with her) not to cry.. funny!! sighs.. wished i was there to see it!! nevermind.. kenneth said lynn took photos.. shall go see the photos.. haha.. miss her! sighs.. haven't seen her for nearly 2 months already! =X jas you'd better not forget me else i'm gonna tickle you til you cry! hahaha. i looooovvve tickling people! heh. okay. yeah. i admit i'm crazy. nutters. whatever. haha. going off le. cya! =) don't miss me too much people! i KNOW you guys miss me! heh. so here's a hug for all of you!! *huggies* =D take care!
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Past the point of no return - no backward glances: the games we've played till now are at an end. Past all thought of "if" or "when" - no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend . . . |
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| I am an eighteen-year-old student currently attending Republic Polytechnic. I enjoy reading, writing, chilling, intelligence, and sarcasm. My goals in life include being a professional slacker, wasting as much of my time, life and intelligence away, sleeping a minimum of 12 hours everyday, being a successful bum, and maybe, possibly, someone you could bring home to meet mom with. |
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