| Saturday, December 02, 2006 |
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i'm feeling pretty.. emo? stoned? depressed? devoid? empty? numb? right now.. i don't know what's the right word to describe it.... right now... if i were a smoker, i'd probably be chain-smoking one whole pack. if i were a druggie, i'd probably be smoking joint after joint. if i were a beer girl, i'd probably finish a six pack.. or maybe twelve. if i were an alcoholic, i'd probably finish a whole bottle of wine. vodka, most probably. if i were a foodie, i'd probably go through 1o whole big bags of chips. if i were an ice cream person, i'd probably finish a whole 1l tub of belgian choc/sticky chewy choc. if i were a chocoholic, i think i'd drown myself in dark choc. if i could go out anytime i want, i'd probably be stoning at the beach. if i could just close my eyes and sleep, i'd gladly do it. if i could punch and scream out loud and feel better, i'd dent the wall and wake the whole neighbourhood. if someone, anyone, was still awake, and could call me, i think i'd be eternally grateful. if i could just talk to you now.. and have you reply me.. i'd just be happy, and thankful. if only i could just cry and let it all out... if you could just hold me the way you used to.. and baby me the way you did..... i'd give anything and everything in the world for that. as much as i don't feel like it, as much as i can't do it, i'm gona force myself to at least try and sleep for an hour or so. or just to close my eyes. hope i can wake up after that. |
| 'please don't stop the music 4:52 am |
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| song of my life. |
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Past the point of no return - no backward glances: the games we've played till now are at an end. Past all thought of "if" or "when" - no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend . . . |
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| Writer |
| I am an eighteen-year-old student currently attending Republic Polytechnic. I enjoy reading, writing, chilling, intelligence, and sarcasm. My goals in life include being a professional slacker, wasting as much of my time, life and intelligence away, sleeping a minimum of 12 hours everyday, being a successful bum, and maybe, possibly, someone you could bring home to meet mom with. |
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