| Wednesday, April 11, 2007 |
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shit. my stomach's hurting like crap and i have NO CLUE why. can't be gastric... i ate.. but the pain... is like having gastric.. man......... i give up. isn't it so easy to say those 3 words? so easy to just let go... but so hard to hold on. you'll know exactly why you said it even if you lie to others saying that you don't know.. if you don't know why, you wouldn't have to say it in the first place... right? in this particular case, though.. i give up on trying to talk to you. it's much more hurtful trying to talk than to just ignore and pretend you're not online..... sorry. i just don't wana cry again.... was i that wrong? maybe i shouldn't have assumed so much.. after all, who was it who said that 'assume', makes an ass out of u and me? i can't remember... is it important to? hmmmmmm.. know what...? i duno why but nowadays i kinda regret not going to jc. reason being i feel that i'm not fully utilizing my brain cells in poly... in fact, i think that my brain cells are dying at an alarming rate of 50 cells per second. (do brain cells actually die that fast?) and well, as a result, i'm getting stupider.... which that idiot nick (the dumbass fitness instructor at the gym -- ssshh! don't say i called him dumbass.) agreed with. arghs. stuuuuuuuupid. just cos people go poly then still can go UNI then must suan me until like that lah.. hmpf. y'noe, this.... thing - for want of a better word, which i can't think of any, seeing as how i'm so stupid - that i've discussed with poh last tues, has been on my mind ever since... i duno. it just keeps popping outta nowhere... remember, poh, that we were talking about how logical/emotional the 3 of us are? as in when you think, about stuffs, do you think with your emotions or with logic. and 3 of us meaning mich, xi wen, and me..... you said xi wen told you before.. that she's in the middle.. mich's on the emo end, while i'm on the logical end.. i don't know what about this particular convo kept it stuck in my head for so long... or maybe i do, but i just don't wana acknowledge it? but somehow it kinda corresponds to some quiz i took on a bored, sunny day ages ago about whether i think like a guy or girl.. and the answer, is, after all.. kinda obvious.. considering the fact that on the average, guys think logically, while girls think emotionally... *shrugs* so maybe my mum and dad mixed up me and my bro's genes..... i was supposed to be the guy (but ended up with a girl's body), and my bro was supposed to be the girl (who ended up with a guy's body). well well well.. makes sense eh? |
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