| Monday, February 23, 2009 |
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anns, i'm halfway (okay maybe less. like third way? quarter way?) through your mail. will finish it and email it over asap. am too damn tired to think straight... circuits are fried, man. totally. reading through my past entries made me realize that i either type very fast, or speak very fast. cos when reading what i wrote (i hear it in my head), it sounded like i was choochoo train-ing my way past the whole chunk of words. then again, maybe it's just me, though i know of people who either ask me to slow down when i'm talking, or to repeat what i said cos it's too fast for them. one guy even asked me to repeat myself before when i was speaking at my NORMAL speed. so me being me, i very sarcastically drawled out the words slowly and 'repeated myself'. speaking of sarcasm... i noticed a LOT of sarcasm in the previous entries too. hmmm. i wonder why. oh well. fi and krissy said i was being assholey to elex. was i? sighs. anyway, i'm trying to make things up with him... to repair our friendship at the very least. but it's really hard when the arse is continuously sarcastic, hurtful and presumptuous. arghhs. oh wells. only time will tell if he's really changed. i'm pretty sure i have, and it's been barely a year. i still can't believe that he actually said 'i wished that you were not so crazy over going out and having fun and not being able to commit into a relationship'. what the hell. i'm not crazy over going out! not in the sense he means anyway... nor having fun... (now i'm just so busy slacking and chilling and learning the art of sitting at one place for ages and not doing anything and simply just wasting time) and i'm certainly able to commit.. thing is, backtrack a year ago (cos that's when i first met him) - i'd just broken up with mel, turned 18, and i certainly did not want to jump back into another relationship. whatever for, when i finally could savour freedom and newfound singlehood? with the addition of being 'legal' (to drink, club and whatnots) it WAS quite a heady mix. plus there was always that tiny lil' problem.... oh, y'noe.... the one where i still wasn't quite over mel. >.< but... that was then... now is.. a totally different story....... and well, it appears that neither of us knows the other as well as we thought... i'm tired of reminscing. am off. cos lately all we do is fight and every time it cuts me deeper |
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Past the point of no return - no backward glances: the games we've played till now are at an end. Past all thought of "if" or "when" - no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend . . . |
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| I am an eighteen-year-old student currently attending Republic Polytechnic. I enjoy reading, writing, chilling, intelligence, and sarcasm. My goals in life include being a professional slacker, wasting as much of my time, life and intelligence away, sleeping a minimum of 12 hours everyday, being a successful bum, and maybe, possibly, someone you could bring home to meet mom with. |
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