| Monday, March 09, 2009 |
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for the first time in ten days, i'm not on the phone in the middle of the night... this feels so damn weird. so much has been going on that i don't know where to begin. right now, i'm just running away from here everyday cos here is worse than a warzone. and no, i can't take it much longer anymore... why are my parents so insistent on branding, image and what others' perceive? why, when nothing else matters but what we really are, inside? it's just this one time that i fell.... they're making it seem like the end of the world. i already feel bad enough, but no, they think that i'm an unfeeling piece of flesh with a heart made of stone. i don't feel, don't think, don't care... but what the hell am i supposed to do? it's ALREADY done. i can't change the damn fact! it hurts to know that i can't be like the rest, that i can't join in, that i can't apply... it hurts to know my options are limited. but at least... at least i still HAVE them. why are they so insistent on me wasting one whole bloody YEAR and a half just because they'd rather i go for the brand name of sim? not like it's gonna be printed on the damn uol cert..... i don't wana waste my time and i'd really like to study. i've had enough of slacking in rp... the system is so damn fucked up, all i want to do is just get out of there. and not sit around doing nothing for one and a half years just because my PARENTS think that the name of the college where i will take the foreign university degree, which does NOT appear on the final degree cert AT ALL, matters. what the fuck. i'm tempted to just tell them that i'll pay for the damn thing myself if i have to work and while i'm at it, i'll just move out of this place and go stay somewhere else. ALONE. i've seriously honestly had enough of this bullshit. it's stupid, it's fucked up and it's total BULLSHIT. urghh. it's always been wait and see, a happy day, and then you pay, and feel like shit, the morning after... ... situations get fucked up, and turned around, sooner or later... i hope. |
| 'please don't stop the music 2:07 am |
now playing :
| song of my life. |
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Past the point of no return - no backward glances: the games we've played till now are at an end. Past all thought of "if" or "when" - no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend . . . |
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| Writer |
| I am an eighteen-year-old student currently attending Republic Polytechnic. I enjoy reading, writing, chilling, intelligence, and sarcasm. My goals in life include being a professional slacker, wasting as much of my time, life and intelligence away, sleeping a minimum of 12 hours everyday, being a successful bum, and maybe, possibly, someone you could bring home to meet mom with. |
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